I never used to be someone who cared about the little great things. The people around me would always be the ones to 'hype' a situation and me, i'd just go along with the ride, pretending to agree.
I didn't think 2019 was going to be any different, January sucked. It was one of those months that had no prospects, no opportunities and i'd given up on it's so called potential and to be honest i'd given up on my dreams, my goals and myself.
"The real 2019 starts in February, January was just a test"
It was all too true in my experience...but God!
God had other plans
It started with a photoshoot. I'd been struggling with self-doubt and frustration. January left me feeling like a complete failure and I had no reason to believe that this shoot was going to be different to any other. In fact it was something i'd planned on a whim for fun, just because. The formula i'd built up in my head was:
Fashion + Photography + some beautiful willing friends
= marginally better than your current situation
One thing I have to be clear on, the photoshoot wasn't perfect, time flew by faster than the month of February 2019 and I was actually left with 1500 photos and 7GB worth of videos to edit. BUT in that photoshoot I was reminded of my purpose. I'd forgotten the very reason I started this venture, I had lost sight of the end goal and the real joy in Asikara.
God reminded me of three very important things.
1. He will complete what He has started in me
being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ;
Philippians 1:6 NKJV
It's God that opened the doors for me to become self employed, to have the flexibility to work and serve simultaneously. It's only God that has brought me this far and God does not go back on His Word, whatever He has started in me He will be faithful to complete
2. His faithfulness is not dependant on me
If we are faithless, He remains faithful; He cannot deny Himself.
2 Timothy 2:13 NKJV
Even in my moments of fear and doubt, He was still working behind the scenes to faithfully carry out everything He had already promised me. I may have felt alone but He never left me (Deut 31:6), I may have felt as though there was no plan, but God had everything under control (Jer 29:11). I may have felt like all I was receiving was negative but God promises great gifts and blessings to those who trust in Him (Ps 84:11).
3. What He is preparing me for, is always worth the wait
Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!
Psalm 27:14 NKJV
In the past week, i've been nominated for two business awards, Young Entreprenur of the Year & an Enterprise Vision Award as well as been listed in Lancs Live as Top Young talent from across Lancashire. I never expected this, I still don't think I even believe it's true. But God...
I now have a new outlook, it's time to celebrate the small wins because each small win is an affirmation of the purpose God has called me to and the fact that i'm right where He wants me to be!
What are your thoughts on #smallwins? Do you struggle with purpose? What life lessons have you learnt through the start of 2019? Comment below, i'd love to hear from you.